I’ve
always enjoyed gazing out at the ocean and feeling a sense of
peace...doesn’t everyone? The warm sand on my feet, the relaxing sound
of the water flowing in and out, in and out. No wonder there are
thousands of paintings, songs and poems about the ocean. What’s not to
love?
I
started to reflect on why a view of the ocean provides such a peaceful
perspective. I used to think it came from the ebb and flow’s literal
representation of impermanence; a multi-sensory reminder that the life
keeps moving and the world is ever-evolving, one tide at a time. Or
perhaps it's due to the horizon-wide expansive view that reminds me that
I’m only a small part of a much bigger world.
But
that view doesn’t include the waves.Those damn waves. I’m not a surfer
and only an adequate swimmer so large breaking waves, coupled with a
strong undertow, is a recipe for anxiety for me. Wouldn’t it be so much
more peaceful if there were no waves? Why do the waves have to ruin the
serenity of the scene!
As
I thought about what draws me to the ocean, I realized it’s the whole
scene together: one gigantic, crashing, flowing, dynamic portrait of
life. I’ve had my fair share of monster waves that have come crashing
down and left me gasping for air. I loathe the feeling of panic when
I’m frantically trying to push back to the surface for air. Half of the
time I’m wondering how I didn’t see the wave coming in the first place!
In particular, I really resent when waves break right in a row, leaving barely enough
time to catch a breath in between.
Yet
each time, I optimistically pull myself back up to try and judge the
next wave to successfully dodge the onslaught of upcoming crashes. But that’s the
trick, isn’t it? Learning and growing; becoming a better judge of how
the waves break, which ones to gracefully float over and which to
gleefully splash through.
It
takes practice to learn how to most efficiently get back to the surface
to catch your breathe when you’ve misjudged a wave that has sent you
crashing under. But the beautiful thing is, when you resurface, you
never find yourself in the same spot where you were before, you always
land somewhere new. Always a new starting point, always another chance.
Perhaps
one of the most important parts of the experience is knowing when you
need a rest. When it’s time to head back to your beach chair and simply
watch the ebb and flow of the tide.
How
I love sitting in my beach chair, watching the ebb and flow, so
peaceful and calm, ebb and flow. I’m tempted to stay in my safe chair,
wrapped in a warm, sun-soaked beach blanket. But...I can’t be one of those
people who merely observes the ebb and flow of life pass by. Getting
back into the wild ocean of life is the only way to experience the joy
of splashing through waves and share the thrill of jumping over waves
with loved ones. It’s the only way to truly know the uplifting feeling
of floating over a big wave and the sense of accomplishment when you are
safely delivered to the other side.
I
could go on and on with the ocean metaphor, and tell you how, for me, it
applies to parenting, friendship, dating, and career. The truth is, the
ocean is so universally appealing because it is what you make of it. For
me, it's brilliance is in the unfolding of challenges and responding
resilience, a constantly changing landscape of joy and fear. It isn’t
always safe, and it's never predictable, but with keen observation,
learning and experience, I’ve become a better judge of the waves and
what it takes to recover from the misjudged, unforeseen and sometimes
mighty crashes.